Okay, so i am not going to let this boyfriend shite bother me, it isn’t fair on me.
I just don’t get it i mean don’t people who love each other want to spend all day everyday with each other? don’t they wanna just cuddle up, hidden away in there own lovely world? holding hands, bodies all tangled up watching movies eating and laughing? that is what i want! To be held, told i’m beautiful and kissed all night!! I guess i just want something that isn’t real? I get my idea of love and relationships from what? movies and tumble picturs… I can’t understand this but, what sorta boyfriend is happy not seeing the girl he apparently loves and wants to be with. oh thank god for tumblr to vent at.
I feel the end is near, and that is the worst part. i can see it coming and i cant do anything to stop it…i don’t want to end it, i would rather just wait it out…and let it happen. i sound stupid but it would hurt so muc more throwing him away than it would just losing him. i am so sorry to everyone who doesn’t care and i’m bothering by filling up there dashboards with my sad life but yeah i am going to keep talking anyway.
Sometimes, when he is at his most distant, i wonder if he means anything he says, if he feels the way he dose or if he is just going throw motions, telling me what i need to hear, maybe he thinks it is better to just keep saying he loves me rather than dealing with the horrible task of dumping me, cause i do not make break ups easy.
He could do better but, i know that and i’m pretty sure he dose too. He is funny and smart, cute and can be the sweetest person ever when we wants to (he just never wants to) and any girl would be lucky to have him. He is so much better than me and i can’t change that, i can’t just suddenly get skinny, beautiful, funny, witty, talented and graceful.. i will more or less always be the same person: Funnly looking, short, a bit plump, awkward, clumsy and a bit stupid.